nostalgic accessories

some part of my past got spilled last night...

honestly, what i felt was... "thank God itu aje diorang tahu"...

lol... i dun mind ppl to know or talk about my past, tapi if that benda can jeapordize my chances of securing a future life partner.. then i'll be pissed...

you know, i think ppl should realize by now, by reading my blog.. u wun get anywhere nearer to the truth.. coz i'll only write about the 'interesting' and gossipy materials (and leave out the dull facts)... who cares about the truth anyway.. yang penting cheritanya menarik..

i mean, i reckon if there's someone who really IS concern and wants to know the truth about me.. im sure i know who that person is (meaning, that person wud be a close friend of mine and not a blog-hopper) and that person can approach me directly and doesnt have to restrict diri dia just by reading my blog..

i dunno la... but for me.. cherita lama, ape perlu di timbul2kan lagi... even if that person is my ex-gf pun... buat apa nak beritahu identity dia pun... is it like, "wow, banyak laki pernah suka dia, so she's must be very hot.." more like.. her past association with me akan buat malu dia aje... but tu special case for exs je...

for perempuan lain.. hmmm.. well, honestly, i see it as.. "ala, just move on la je a, benda da lama... she's forgettable and replaceable anyway.." not like i still think of them pun.. the fact that i still dun kejar them is an evidence that that girl couldnt hold my attention for long.. but again, one girl may not know what i'd do for another girl... and maybe perkara yang i do for her she thinks is wow, could be small compared to what i do for orang lain that she doesnt know of..

it was fun la, dulu-dulu kenal2an sana sini.. but when it reached the point where, even when you are out with the girl on a date, you still feel lonely (walaupun nga berduaan)... it just sucked...... and it was like, everytime meeting a new girl meant knowing one more type of girl u dont want to spend your life with...

but sometimes.....

(this part, u readers fill it up with anything juicy or gossipy that is imaginative and creative to talk about)

.... and i wish i'd known better

... lalalalaaaaaa

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